When I Say NO, It’s Like I Never Said YES (A B*tch Blog)

You know why people like Donald Trump seem to have everything yet not have a care in the world? It’s because despite what others do/say they will still do whatever they want.  You are feeble to them and that is the way it is…

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I don’t have many material items in this world. But the things that I do possess or pay to maintain are done so as a result of my hard work & efforts. Despite my complaints here & there or even this little voice that says be more selfish, I share my so-called “wealth” because I can’t take any of it with me when I die. But fuck all of that, (in my Samuel L. Jackson yelling voice) I HAVE HAD ENOUGH OF IGNORANT, NONCHALANT, IRRESPONSIBLE, MOTHERFUCKING PEOPLE WHO BULLY OR SWEET TALK/BAIT ME INTO SHARING THE SAME SHIT  I YOU CAN EASILY ATTAIN FOR YOURSELF. I AM SOOOOO SICK OF YOU NOT GIVING 2 FUCKS ABOUT THE THINGS THAT BELONG TO ME! There is no rule book that says I have to do anything with ANYTHING that is MINE! I don’t have to share… and I don’t care if no one shares with me. Fuck, I can even be Petty with mines. It is not my problem if I have what the next person doesn’t because the way I see it, is that nobody cares the other way around. I don’t bust my ass to attain nice things for me & my child for someone else to abuse or tear up because they themselves don’t have it. I’m tired of being nice, I’m tired of giving a shit about people’s pansy-ass, sensitive bullshit feelings! I’m tired of individuals who have the audacity to feel some type of way when I voice my concerns or complaints about my shit. And I’m certainly tired of people assuming I have to do or give! Doesn’t matter what you do or did for me in the past present or future… I don’t have to care or share… I FUCKING CHOOSE TO.

But that’s not even the half of it, if I voice my concern or frustration… I immediately become the unreasonable bitch or bad guy… Well to that I have only 2 things to say: O & K!

If you have an issue with the new me, oh well, OK!

If I offend you or if I appear to be unapproachable or even hostile, OK!

PS. If you don’t like what I say or post, guess what you can unfriend, unfollow, block or delete yourself… Online or otherwise!

Oh and this isn’t some sly, pronoun game where I secretly take jabs & say shit about certain people on the low without naming names… Because this applies to EVERYONE! Including any of you who took the time to read all this shit! ✌️

Until Next Time Kiddies…Shalom!

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poem of thought, 101

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Departing the house of pain and lies filled with rooms of doubt and despair.
I stepped away and looked down at my ashes in my hands, the smoke in my hair.
I kept walking away never stopping to look back, not contemplating one turn
Because I had poured the gasoline, struck the match and watched it all burn.
Was I finally free? I was let go of all your disappointments that led to my stress
All I could look forward now to was my surrender to my own happiness.
No longer would you pollute my sight.  No longer would you cause my tears.
Because I finally found a way to let go of what kept me insane these past years.
I won’t allow you and all that follow you make me prematurely grow old
It’s time I begin the fight to repair my soul.
No longer would I tear pieces of myself away to build you up
No longer would I belittle myself to nothing more than a convenient fuck.
You see I am done with you about as much as I am done with what ruined my past
It’s time for me to take the present and look toward building my better future at last.
I’ve been here before staring at the horizon of bliss
To keep from going back I won’t think of the good I might miss.
Because once I finally let go and found the courage to stand tall through the disdain
I realize that the only good in you was shrouded in selfish means you sought to gain.
I see now that it was a mirage and that the love was all a fraud, a fake
From that overwhelming nightmare, I am now finally awake.
Good bye, I’m gone from here. I see now the lesson I never truly learned
Until  I had poured the gasoline, struck the match and watched it all burn.




Now if you’re not caught up with Game of Thrones be advised…

Well it would appear that my new Sunday addiction is Game of Thrones.  Now I have liked the show for a few years now but lack of cable or good streaming kept me at bay not to mention so much else.

Anyway I spent several weeks streaming and binging to catch up to season 6 premier only to find out my favorite character Jon Snow was still very much dead!
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Well that was until last week’s edge of your seat episode. Here’s a pretty much my reaction!

Was I shocked and surprised? No… Why because there was there was just too much hype convincing us he was dead unlike so many other GoT characters. I mean so many folks have come and gone despite our cries and cheers (ahem Joffrey)! And yet there was a host of protest everywhere! Now that Snow is back and abroad… Why lies ahead for the rush to the Iron Throne?

What will he do? Where he go? Maybe a vacation somewhere nice and sunny like Meeren, perhaps! Not to mention his siblings separated and whatnot! Anywho…needless to say I’m hooked to this show and if you’re not, get on board!

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Well until next time Kiddies,

Shalom… 😉

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Deadpool (review)


Hello there fans… I know long time no see! I apologize for the absence, which was more extended than I wanted. But at least I could come back on the topic of some shit I very well love: movies and well Ryan Reynolds! 🙂

So after anticipating and borderline craving, I finally feasted my eyes on Deadpool the movie! 👍

And while yes this blog is a day (er…week) or 2 late, it is with much pleasure that after seeing it twice… your girl is satisfied. You have your Marvel super/anti hero antics, humor, gore, good plot and Ryan naked! I nearly wore a diaper in fear I’d piss myself in shear excitement.

I won’t give up much for those of you living under a rock who haven’t seen it but I will say this, this movie is not without it’s “wall breaking” tummy hurting chuckles. I won’t lie, I love comics but I won’t go so far to say I am a comic geek but for those folks I know who are, after speaking with them, they too were not let down.

And to be honest I could care less if they were…why?

Because Ryan is fucking NAKED!!!! Ok I know I said that already… but I give you a tidbit!


Ok our  lovable Deadpool aka Ryan has just survived an explosion (that he caused trying to escape this torture chamber that looks like a glass coffin, which suffocates him.  He then fights against (another well built sir), the antagonist Francis aka Ajax (Ed Skrein from the Transporter reboot/sequel & Vikings).
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The entire building engulfed in flames, as fate would have it his clothes catch on fire. And so he rips them off, his eyes set on revenge on Ajax. Nonetheless Ryan, er Deadpool (who at this point is still technically Wade Wilson) is totally fucking naked. Despite being scarred all over (resulting from his cancer that mutated all over his skin from the Weapon-X experiment & possibly the fire). Anywho, The fight goes on for a bit while the fire spreads all over the place. And after being knocked down briefly, there it is!! I mean it’s not all in your face so don’t picture Boogie Nights in fact it’s a shadow or silhouette if you will but if you’re looking for it like I was (especially the 2nd time I saw this flick), you can see Ryan Reynolds’s penis.

I’m not sure about you but seeing 2 well built guys fight damn naked in a fire is my idea of a wet dream… HAHAHA!

I am so glad that this was one of those films not spoiled (by that I mean ruined) by not-know-it-all producers and money whores who wanted to water down Deadpool with a PG rating.  If you are familiar with this crazy ass comic character, you’ll know he is no role model superhero. He is bound to say or do anything, he is “bat-shit” crazy and hilarious. Check him out in the videogame, comics or better animated movies (Hulk vs. Wolverine is probably best) before you get mad or offended by the content. I mean Deadpool a family flick…HELL NO! 3102119-deadpool2_zps0ebaadcb

Let me tell you something, this country is chocked full of parents who will expose (or at the very least ignore) their kids to viewing inappropriate shit… such as gore and nudity in movies. This world is going to hell anyway, censoring movies (or TV) won’t halt that. Not so much as telling parents that their kids can’t pray publicly or be beaten with a belt.

Let me stop there before I go off topic…lol! That’s for another blog! I swear I wasn’t a full teen when I saw my first unedited Jason flick

Anywho, I loved this movie with all it’s slapstick humor, boobs, ass, profanity, violence and last but not least gore. If you want Spiderman or something kid friendly, this may not be for you but if you truly love Deadpool go on and grab about 40 bucks and blow it on this movie plus concessions. You will definitely be happy with this guy
(and no not that questionable one version from Wolverine),
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Needless to say, I will be buying the Blu-ray in addition to already seeing this multiple times in the theatre.

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Well until next time Kiddies,

Shalom & See You at the movies… 😉

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My Whore over Heroin

Bringing This one Back Just Because

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Warning: The following contains sexually implied content!

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The thin lines between lust, love, hate… often blurred & easily broken.
It’s addiction at its strongest…much like a straight heroin injection.

heroin injectionI hate how it makes me quiver but I need & I want it…the longing.
The emptiness in my veins craves to be ravished…I’m jonesin’

It’s like a I try to walk away but like a moth to a flame
I’m a junkie running whenever you call on my name

Your needle penetrates my skin as soon as I open my legs…so deep inside!
I am putrid and filthy from the sins we hide.


I lust, I love, I hate… how weak I’ve become until you enter me.
Sad because before you came I know how strong I used to be.

Now I’m sitting here yearning for your small drug again that I tried parting.
I even turned into an evil bitch…

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Mid Season Finales (review)



Since I haven’t done a review in a while… I guess I will get my blog on the recent mid-season finales I got to catch. Below are my fall-winter picks to wait for… (spoilers below). Although I tried to

1. Supernatural
Now I am starting with this one because I have been a fan since day one However despite this, I am trying to grasp where this season is going. I am assuming it will center on Dean and his “darkness” but I am (can’t believe I am going to say this) struggling with interest.  As much as I love this show it’s all over the place unalike it’s former seasons (specifically 1-5). That being said I am going to wait it out before I cast much judgment but as far as a mid-season ending… it was just blah for me. I don’t know what to think of this last episode or season in general. Although I am curious what’ll become of my #MCM Dean.


2. Arrow
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Can you say PLOT TWIST? When this series first came on, I wasn’t really into it and then suddenly my other celeb crush, Colton Haynes joined and so I figured I would check it out. Well a year + later, I did. I hopped on Netflix and watch the first 2 seasons in a few weeks and I AM HOOKED! The mid season finale had one hell of an ending and has me gripping my seat, TV & PC (depending on where/how I tuned in). That epic but brief fight with Ra Sa Gul was crazy. I can’t wait for the return.


3. Agents of S.H.I.E.L.D
I started watching this show from the beginning and between my schedule, I fell off. Well I am glad I caught back up.  What a bang on the mid season finisher. Sad to see an agent go… especially one of my favs but I am so excited to see where this show is going. Between Ward and his hidden motives and Skye with her super powered alien juice… I can’t wait!!!

4. Sons of Anarchy
Now I know that SOA is a done deal but with past seasons on Netflix & Hulu… I think this addictive series is one you may want to get into online while awaiting the return of everything else. Bye Bye Jax (tear)

5. Sleepy Hollow
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This show took a turn for the bizarre merging a classic tale with that of the supernatural and the book of revelations.  It takes Biblical & American history and intertwined them into a tale of mystery that dates back to the days of the American Revolution.  This mid season finale found Ichabod and Abbie racing to save the world from the End of Days. I will say that I didn’t see that ending coming. Henry…you shock me every time.

6. Vampire Diaries
There have been times that this show made me think less of vampires… but then I look at that sexy ass Damon and think. Actually I don’t think, I just watch those dreamy blue eyes and zone out.  Anyway the mid season finale and pretty much this entire season has me rather pissy. I really hate how they are doing Bonnie. I mean she can’t catch a break.  To be the most selfless character, she gets the shortest end of the stick ALWAYS! And can someone decapitate or cut off Kai’s hands.  Sure he is a little cutie but he is such an asshole.

7. The Flash
This show was another reason that I caught up on the Arrow. I mean the crossovers had me realizing what I was missing. Anywho, I mean aside from what you know from the comics, this show pretty much stays true to that and it’s a little lighter than it’s other DC counterpart.  I love the chemistry between the actors and I really love the fact that Barry’s (The Flash) dad is played by the guy who played the Flash in the childhood TV show I remember. Anywho, I am curious as to what’s up with the doctor…WHAT IS HE UP TO? Oh and Reverse Flash, I am sure we will see him again.
8. American Horror Story
As if clowns aren’t scary enough…add some other twisted looking individuals, a morbid plot and a eerie setting… You got about 60 minutes of crazy shit. If you haven’t checked out this years show of AHS, well please do yourself a solid and do so… why? 3 words: Twisty the Clown! And it didn’t stop there, the amazing acting that made me cry for Pepper and the need to know what became of Lobster boy… has me at sigh…

9. The Walking Dead
What can I say… I have been in love with this show from the start. With some episodes not really doing much for me and others blowing me away, TWD has been one of the most ingenious shows on cable tv.  Sure it’s gory, witty and makes you think what would life be like in a post-apocalyptic world? The crazy thing is between cannibals, paranoia & those trying create a new world order…the zombies are the least of ones worries.  Unless you’re surrounded by hordes of them and no weapon. Nonetheless we lost a main character and boy was it sad! Damn Darryl, when you cry… I just wanna hold you in my arms. 😦

10. Grimm
Let’s see. Take a typical cop show, fairy tale stories and throw in some head chopping and fighting and you have Grimm.  Last week’s episode has me wondering what happened to Adeline’s baby and if she will ever find her.  I really gotta love/hate thing for her. I love the fact that she is a do whatever it takes survive thing but she is so conniving…AAAHH!! And poor Rosalee and Monroe. Why can’t they just be happy without the whole racist/anti-species mixing bull. Bad enough Nick and Juliette can’t just be happy. Hopefully this fairy-tale inspired story can give someone a happily ever after.

Bonus. Constantine
Another comic book show & supernatural theme. (yes I am predictable…lol) But unlike the Keanu Reeves flick, the writers stayed rather true to the comics down to the accent and hair color. Anywho last week’s mid season finale started out as a solve the mystery-hunt the baddie.  However the show concluded with a save an innocent/screw the hero. I mean the only reason I am on the edge of my seat is because of rumors that this show may not have a season 2.  I mean they can’t kill off ol’ Johnny boy… I mean can they?

Well there you have my top picks…. Until next time!

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