Bucket List left undone

RANDOM THOUGHTS

un·fin·ished – [ˌənˈfiniSHt]

ADJECTIVE

  1. not finished or concluded; incomplete.

Looking through a few video games and sadly I have yet to finish more than half of them. Not only on my Xbox one but my 360.. Not sure if it’s my natural instinct to procrastinate, the fact I het bored easily or that I get easily attracted to the next shiny new toy but I’m gonna finish at least one of them before the week is out…lol.

Hell I think I even have some unfinished flicks too. Fuck I even have a slew of blog drafts that need to be unearthed not to mention a novel or 2, 3 or shit… 😒.
I got a lot of work to do! Maybe i will start on that kitchen remodel or backyard! 😩😳.
Nonetheless your insomniac has a lot of work to do! 😠

Well til next time kiddies…
Shalom

PS. Hoping to report at least one completed task by then next blog.

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I’m ok… No really I’M NOT OK

 

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Are you stressed? Are you at your wits end? Are you unhappy? Are you unjustified? Well you are not alone…whether you suck at time management, love, relationships, money or heck even school… You are like the thousands if not millions whose stress levels and blood pressure are through the roof!

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Well I am no doctor or Zen master but I can say there are a few things I and we can do to get through it without a stroke or spontaneously combusting!

Well worry not because the things that stress you will be there regardless if you worry or not.  At least with the latter, you give yourself the opportunity to devise a plan to get away from your stressors!

It doesn’t have to be as pricey as a all-inclusive cruise. It can be a stroll, short drive (if gas level permits).

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Until Next Time Kiddies…Shalom!

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Eat, Pray, Love (er…Workout)

RANDOM THOUGHTS

Ok if you’re like me… You probably wonder why you have issues losing or controlling your weight. Despite efforts at the gym… Good health is more than just cardio & weights, it’s a lifestyle change that needs to be hit on various fronts!
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This is because your body has to fight more than calories, saturated fats & complex carbs; you also have to fend off toxins.

What are these toxins I’m talking about?
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Your body is filled with cancer causing toxins that must be removed. These cancer causing devils can come from food/beverages we take in as well as the environment down to chemicals that are used to clean our homes and manufacture our food. Shit they are even in the air we breathe Even less tangible factors such as stress can be a detriment to us.
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Here are some symptoms that may indicate you could be suffering from an overload of toxins! If that’s the case…then it’s time to detox!

craving sweet donut 1. Craving sugar or binge eating/drinking. Ok I’m not saying you can’t have a cheat-treat every now & again…hell I love my chocolate! But if you find yourself relying on sugary snacks all the time or just to get through the day, your body is not producing energy the way it should. You can boost your metabolism by cleaning out the liver.
Bloated-belly-from-periods 2. Bloating with gas or fluid retention. If you find yourself having to loosen your jeans all the time, unhealthy bacteria could be the culprit… That mess causes the gas to flux & thrive in a toxic body. If you’re retaining water, it’s because your organs in your body are trying to kick out all of the crap inside! It does it’s due diligence to dilute toxins in an effort to make their effects less harmful.
exhausted-woman fatigue 3. Fatigue, low energy & difficulty concentrating. If you find yourself always in Starbucks paying for over priced lattes & not because the cashier working the coffee-machine-thingy is hot 😉… Then chances are toxins are weighing your body down…LITERALLY! Coffee, sodas, & energy drinks can actually add to your body’s toxicity! Your ass needs to clear out all that shit out of your body (no pun intended). The most invigorating drink you can give yourself is WATER.
mood swing pms 4. Mood swings & anxiety. If you’re being a complete bitch & flying off the handle for no reason, chances it could be more than PMS! Serotonin, the feel-good neurotransmitter, is made in our stomach. So when our bodies are toxic, serotonin production often decreases, allowing other parasitic toxins such as ammonia to take over. This can cause anxiety & even depression.
woman holding her head in her hands 5. Migraines. If you’re constantly suffering from migraines & headaches… It could be that toxins, parasites & even jacked up alkaline levels irritating the central nervous system. Stress overload can cause insulin & blood pressure spikes, which can be correlated to toxic build up.
Despite us “feeling” like we are individually different, each human is pretty much the same. We were designed with a purpose, meaning our internal workings respond to all things in a very specific way. Despite us acting stupid on impulses, instinctively we are very smart. Our bodies do their best to process toxins through our liver, kidneys, lungs, & skin. But with the overwhelming amount of toxins in the world, it can put your organs into serious OT! Making healthy choices will not only take stress off of our digestive, circulatory, and lymphatic systems, but will aid in removing this toxic build up.
Here are some tips to help us all get rid of toxins.
woman-eating-salad-healthy 1. EAT Whole, Nutrient-Dense Foods at least 80% of the time. It’s ok to indulge sometimes & have those cheat-treats but not everyday. Put down that donut & grab a damn apple!
Sweat_Workout 2. SWEAT at the gym or home. Get moving with more exercise. I can never stress how important working out is. It is the perfect date to good eating. Also sweating at the sauna is excellent for releasing toxins too.
greener smoothie 3. DRINK Organic Raw Green Juice Or Smoothies Everyday. They not only push toxins out of your fat stores, but to provide an abundance of enzymes, vitamins, minerals & phytochemicals. And not to be cheap here but I recommend making your own. Those bottled brands are cool on the go & the smoothie trucks are ok. But hidden within those supposedly healthy options are an insane amount of sugar & even corn syrup.
lemon detox water 4. START Your Day With Water & Lemon. Instead of coffee, lemon water can keep your body alkaline, loosen toxins in the digestive track, stimulate the liver and boost the immune system. Besides water is the best beverage you can put inside of you. If you feat damage to the enamel of your teeth, then the plain stuff will do. Water, although it sounds counterproductive, actually aides in fluid retention & bloating by helping your body flush the toxins that cause it the 1st place.
meditation 5. MEDITATE during some quiet time. This is probably one of the least talked about detox functions. Whether it’s prayer, time alone in a quiet spa or even a quiet chat with a therapist. Removing stress by a detox to your spirit/chi releases all those bad vibes by calming your soul & realigning your cognitive thinking. Trust me, it’ll help alleviate cardiovascular, sexual, mental & gastrointestinal issues. If we would recharge our bodies like we do our phone batteries, we would be A-ok!
Well I am off to take my own advice & get my mind right again. 😜😄.
If you would like to get help putting together a raw food detox food plan, check out The Best of Raw Foods. They have an orgy of useful tools to get you started on eating right. No matter if you’re changing your diet permanently or doing a weekly/monthly detox.
Until next time kiddies,
Shalom!

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Procrastinating?? Or strategically planning…Hmmm

RANDOM THOUGHTS

Well as my regular TV season coming to an end, I find myself plagued with the inevitable option of doing all the things I’ve procrastinated since the fall! Like cleaning out my basement, renovating parts of my house or my next book (it’s still a work in progress). Sadly, I’m finding myself boggled down with so much that I’m losing focus on things lately. I’m hoping that some time off in the near future will undo that.

Perhaps…

About a year or 2 ago, I was focusing on my theater project until financial responsibility forced me to do otherwise. I still have my working out and blogging that will mostly take the majority of my attention. But so far my business start of up providing rides to drunk people have consumed most of my free time. Hopefully my book can get done before the year end. If not there is always being stuck in remedial office work again!
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I mean it’s not that I’m lazy because I’m always on the move. I just get in my own way sometimes. I truly need a personal assistant or get my phone to remind me to do things during the day better. Maybe one of those hypnotherapists can help. At least I have Cortana on my phone… She’s better than Siri and I should utilize that if only I can stay not distracted long enough. LOL

Well on to walk the dog & publish some of these drafts in this blog here… Oh wait the new season of Teen Wolf will be coming back & Orange is the New Black is on Netflix right now… Plus I need to catch up on last seasons Blacklist…
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FUCK…TV here I come!

Well Until Next Time Kiddies…
Shalom

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Loveless Nation (A B*tch Blog)

I was sitting back thinking about a picture I posted on my Instagram page.
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It really had me thinking on my current situations as well as that of so many others going on. So many people content on being options and not anything more. Folks flaunting cheating, infidelity, promiscuity and nothing but lust that love itself has become “Played out” these days. It’s not to say that it doesn’t exist because I have so many friends who are hitched or at the very least committed to one person…without it seeming like it’s weird. I probably have said it so many times that it’s becoming a broken record. But it makes my stomach sick.

Why/How has this lack of love thing become ok? When did the world decide to become so caught up in physical, temporary fixes that anything with the possibility of becoming real seemed corny by the masses? I look at some people who claim that it is ok to have a main chick/dude and something on the side. Then I look at the people who are capable of providing a commitment who don’t or can’t provide much else. Lastly then you have the people in a relationship or marriage that couldn’t be more miserable.

I hate to get theological but this world is going to Hell…quick, fast and in a hurry. No stops, no returns!
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The sickening part are the ones who are like myself have had chances for something real with someone real have turned around and blindly confuse with someone who is not.  I tend to find all of the qualities I want in one individual only to successfully find out that this person has some other agenda, a waste of time and isn’t the one at all.  Only to look back down the road at the choices I have to live with now. It’s ironic that the guys I met/dated earlier in life have moved on and settle down with someone else.  Then I sit back with the “that could’ve been me” face!
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Not to say that they didn’t want me or wasn’t good but I let my own foolishness & pride get in the way. I have this talent for always choosing the right one at the wrong time or the wrong one at the right time… or what the fuck ever! I am stuck between never being satisfied and always wanting what I am not supposed to have. All in all, I just want this…
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Or heck even this….
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Sadly, I have no one but myself to blame. I see folks happy and say that’s all I want. Why not me? And then I realize I had my chance and ruined it to the point that now I just want to be alone anyhow. Back to square one of chasing my own tail and stuck with confusing my wants for my needs and not wanting those who want me.
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I keep telling myself I want and need to get married yet I keep landing myself in situations that bring further away from that goal….Bringing me back to the conclusion that we are a loveless nation.

Fucktarded shit to the fullest! No worries though.. I am not gonna off myself or seclude myself! I am just gonna sit back and enjoy life. And maybe, just maybe if Yahweh brings me someone I need… I wont be too dumb to see it nor hopefully will I let Mr. Wrong get in the way…again! I know the signs and I’ve always known better from the word go! I just never listen until the proverbial: “I told you so!” At least I have the good sense to know I fucked up! I just want to show my daughter I can make better decisions!

Anyway til later folks…
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Fathers Day – It’s for The Dads Ladies!

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Yet another Father’s day is upon us. Although it’s been 10 years since my grandfather has passed, the memory of his wise (and often comical) words are still fresh in my mind. His gestures and everything that made him as awesome as he was is the reason why every year, I take time to remember him.

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Which brings me to my next conclusion… Don’t wait until the man in your life be it your father or father of your children is gone, to open your heart! Mend burned bridges if you can. Don’t let bitterness consume and control you. My grandfather lived a long and beautiful life but so many of our young men do not. Ladies, don’t take away from the men who do try because he doesn’t do everything you demand… and yes without realizing it, we can be all too demanding! Not saying we a re not deserving but we can be a bit much to handle. All in all, it is your kids that suffer.

That being said, it took me some time to confront my own demons regarding my father and the father of my child. I wanted to bring attention on was my own biological father.

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This is probably one of the very few fond memories I have (yes I do have them) with my biological father. He wasn’t around much and yes he let me down often. But I’m not bitter or angry because I not only grew from his seed, those sometimes painful experiences led me to be the woman I am today. Despite what he put me and especially my mother through, he is still without a doubt my father. I don’t talk about him much if at all but as Yahweh commanded, Honor your mother AND father! So ladies don’t man-bash today…it impacts your kids more than you think. Let the real dads, enjoy their day!

I say this because in all the years I spent resenting my own father, it led me to none other than men exactly like him. Deadbeats, degenerates, disloyal… But recently I came to realize that we as ladies date “our dads” whether we know it or not. It’s not to say all of the men I knew were like my pop or that he was 100% bad. My father was and is human and a man flawed no less. But whether it was the little girl looking for fatherly affection or trying to fix a broken man, I nonetheless ran straight towards the men I thought I was avoiding.

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We as women have to stop this cycle. Not saying we should blow off every guy that crosses our path but we shouldn’t settle either. If a man is no good and without a doubt incapable of change or at the least making you happy… say GOOD BYE or else be prepared to be unhappy. I wanted my grandfather in my life but instead of choosing wisely with my head and my heart in sync… I rushed toward dead-ends almost immediately. I settled for the assholes like my biological father. With that being said, ladies if a man you had kids by is a deadbeat, don’t constantly remind your kids of it. Don’t belittle him or trash talk him when then are around. Because regardless if you admit to it or not, they are part of him too. And what you say/do filters right into them. Trust me the damage is damn near irreparable.

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Just love your kids and care for them to the full extent of your power. They see your struggle and are well aware of it… they don’t need reminders. Because before you know it as soon as they piss you off or say/do something like their fathers, you without thinking will quickly tell them how much they remind you of the man you spend most of your time trash talking. (nature has a way of fucking with you like that)!

Maybe then and only then will you find the man Yahweh wants us/you to have.

That being said, No need for Father’s Day messages to me or other women. Let the real dads have their day! We have Mother’s day and the other 363 days of the year!

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Update on my Battle of the Bulge (Getting in Shape)

Hey all…

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It’s been about a year since I began to spearhead my battle of losing weight! For the better part of a decade I have struggled with my weight immensely. Losing, gaining and  gaining some more!  Suffice to say, the shit was hard and has been hard. I mean there’s tracking food/calorie/carb intake and working out to following simple rules regarding when and when you shouldn’t eat, sleep, etc.  Also throw in some genetic dispositions that make you predisposed to gaining weight and stress itself… well then you have found yourself being not only overweight again but falling off the fitness wagon!

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To all of that I said to myself: SHUT THE HELL UP AND GET OFF YOUR ASS! STOP MAKING EXCUSES AND START KEEP MAKING PROGRESS!

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I had bad days & busy days, I skipped workouts, ate like shit but at the end of it all,  I found a reason to get back up & at it! I lost weight, gained back, wanted to give up, got discouraged, hell I even faced physical injury (not related to workout/exercise…but from sheer clumsiness on top of an old college-sports injury). But I looked at how far I came and said it would not only be stupid to give up but it would be selfish to all the people I had inspired with my story!

I was not going to sit here and treat this fitness thing, which became my new lifestyle become a fad.

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I tried new and different ways to workout, eat right, etc. all the while on a budget! From the Wii to the Xbox Kinect to walking/jogging to pole dance and cardio classes. I found ways to keep moving!

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The point of it was to not give up! Hell, even if you want to or feel discouraged, trust me you’re right on track!  I got so motivated I made a fitness group on Facebook! To some I may have seem hyped or overzealous but it was because I was proud of my progress! I may have not hit that 100lb mark I set last year but I still lost 50lbs overall!

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But that wasn’t the kicker. I recently had been going through pictures I was tagged in on Facebook, more so the ones on my mother’s page. I didn’t know if or when she would disable it so I figured I save a few to my phone… besides Thursday was on the rise so I needed a throwback! LOL

Man was I dumb-shocked.

Looking back 3 plus years ago to when I was 30 years old…I  didn’t how big I was & how much progress I had actually made. And it was all because I didn’t give up! I had to keep pushing and not get feel discouraged by the results I thought I couldn’t see immediately. Why because if you’re consistent, you’re making progress. There was not going to be any punishing myself for anything…even if I felt as if I caved! Because the person who truly gives up is the person who never tries again. I workout because I love my body not because I hate it! Anytime I felt like I was pissed off, sad or what have you, I took it out on my workout (if not my writing)!

The current result…
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(Presently that should say 2014)
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Asthma, injury, single-mom, two jobs, one of which I left behind…not to mention all of the other things that could get in the way of doing what I was had to!

WHAT THE FUCK IS YOUR EXCUSE?

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