The MARVELous Road To Infinity War

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For any of you living under a fucking rock… there has been the plethora of comic book flicks that has been leading up to this epic showdown of showdowns, The Avengers. Some of you may just see it as a simple cash cow… But for the rest of us who just may be what you call comic-book-fans, this is epic & short of fucking awesome! Don’t judge us, those who you call freaks and geeks. The Whedon Avengers (part 1) blew me away. And this…will be the same! As much as I wanted to like Age of Ultron…for me is was meh… Although James Spader was da bomb… (Yes I’m old) 😂

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But for those of you scratching your head, I am taking none other than the Marvel Cinematic Universe. For all of us as kids who watched Saturday morning cartoons or read a comic book, seeing our fav shit come to life on screen is without a doubt amazing. From the black and white days of Superman up to now, people love to see works of art come to life. And I am sorry, some of the things that Stan Lee and company have done are pretty much this age’s Renaissance. Even video games, despite a failure to launch well (except Mortal Kombat & to some extent, Resident Evil) have been brought to the big screen.

That being said, I will be talking about my fav comics-turned-movies as we countdown to Part 1 of the ultimate showdown: Avengers: Infinity War. Be warned since I am still playing with the vlog thing, this won’t my typical rant/rave review blog post but in preparation to one of the most anticipated comic book flicks…In fact for the next few posts that are reviews…I ‘m pretty much gonna wing it…so stay tuned!

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I will try to keep it short & post all MCU movies leading up to the release of Infinity War in order of release but showcasing my own favoritism. LOL! Hell there’s like damn near 20 movies already released, not including the TV shows so I will NOT be reviewing them all individually.

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And although, they are pretty much separated from the actual movies, I will moonlight a little about the TV shows on the side. This was something I wanted to do with DC comics, movies and shows but didn’t have the time to…besides I did a review of the actual Justice League movie with my comic-book-partner-in-crime, (my kid)…which you can check out here. Oh and if you haven’t been on my YouTube channel, which I promise to give regular love to…here is your chance to like, comment & subscribe.

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Are you excited to see the Avengers movie, what comic book flicks have tickled your fancy?

Well Until Next Time Kiddies

shalom

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Let Go…

DIW RANDOM THOUGHTS

I wrote this a little while back after ending a relationship with someone.  I left it in my drafts because I refused to breathe any air into the situation I was getting over.  But then I thought about that confused girl torn between someone she’d given her world to and the possibility of actually being happy.

Dear You,

Time to let it all go, the good, the bad, the ugly & the cutesy. Time to move on.  I know that is hard but I have to wipe the slate complexly clean before I can do anything else.  Screw closure. Screw holding on… It’s more of a detriment and no benefit was worth what I endured.  I know now that by staying I am only saying that I accept the unacceptable; I am ok settling for less than what I need or deserve.  It’s ok to walk away knowing you didn’t win but when you think about it, what was the prize anyhow?

No one who wants to hurt will continue hurting you. Fuck the honeymoon phase where you will only be subjected to mental anguish later. It’s one thing to revel in makeup shenanigans…but this is crazy! Fuck it even if you don’t find the best of what you had in something new. Trust yourself that ANYTHING is better than what you had. Fuck trying to settle and diminishing your worth for someone who doesn’t think it’s worth being loyal in the first place. If they cared…you wouldn’t be having this epiphany.  You may have troubles here and there. You may feel lonely and cold in your bed but is it worth feeling hurt in your heart and soul?

Trust in knowing that if a person loves you they do not make decisions to hurt you in any form.  There are no accidents in cheating or abuse… A real friend or significant other shows you both who they are and what you mean to them. PERIOD. If someone truly loves you and wants you to be happy, they don’t go doing the things that result in the opposite of your happiness or love. A person will put effort into the things that matter to them be it money, love, success, fame, etc.

So when you hear that little voice telling you to listen to the cries of a person who is guilty but not actually remorseful for what they did to you…remember these tidbits from me and a fellow blogger friend…

[Will he cheat again? Absolutely! He’s already established that she’s (you) not worth being loyal to. When a man shows you who he is, BELIEVE him. Will he try to make it up to her? Absolutely! However, that’s his guilt talking and not his character. It is not in a cheater’s character to be loyal.

 If you are married to a cheater, ask yourself, “What am I doing here? You didn’t get married to be cheated on. Did you? You deserve better. Don’t you? If/when you find, out, don’t go looking for a marriage counselor, there’s nothing wrong with you. HE needs counseling. What you need is a divorce attorney. When a husband cheats, he doesn’t need to fix his marriage, he needs to fix his character. And this is not something you can help him with. He’s already grown…]

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In your case there is nothing holding you back except emotions and the idea of escaping other annoying bullshit in your life. If you waste your time choosing a good time over a good person, you’re gonna have a bad time. Don’t let what you envision in a person be a distraction from who they really are. Besides sometimes holding on is more detrimental than letting go.

You may have not had the happy ending that you wanted but this isn’t the end of the book as far as you know…it’s just another chapter! Take what you learned and move on. We always think we need closure to move on but we don’t…not always. Fuck that needing to know why it happen and accept that it did… A fool is a man who learns not from his mistakes but who repeats them.

Well Until Next Time Kiddies

shalom

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Are We All BiPolar?

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I think I am fucking bipolar.

I haven’t been clinically diagnosed but it recently dawned on me… One minute, I’m manic and overjoy
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Then the next, I hate the fucking world.|
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Now don’t worry about me, I’m fully functional and all.  I just think there’s a tiny misfire somewhere in my head. Is this a cry for help or is it me coming down off of my own high? Is this me pulling your leg or trying to lean on your shoulder. I only ask because there is no way one could withstand the level of fuckery that I do with a smile….unless I am without a doubt fucking loony?!?
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That being said, I am fine. Despite life’s ups and downs, I am blessed.

I know that mental health is no joking matter but if I am struggling around a few emotions stirred with a few events that affect my mood day to day, I wonder how it is for those who cannot deal? I mean I keep it together on the outside, I meditate and focus my energy but I know that in the back of my head, if unchecked I am a ticking time bomb.

Take a moment to ponder…

Imagine being trapped inside of your own head or a prisoner of your own emotions… but instead of having a way to channel them or controlling them…they control you.

Imagine clinging to only the good memories others made for you because you lost yourself in them.  You did this only to escape yourself and in turn pushed them all away.

There are voices in your head telling you one thing or another.  You don’t know who/what to listen to or not. The consume every part of you.

They control the relationships you form or destroy.  Like a drug, you’re addicted to the chaos of your own malicious mind.

And then one day you wake up, happy and refreshed.  You have a new outlook on life. Everything is without a doubt beautiful. Things no longer haunt, hurt or anger you. You are free to do whatever you want and you have a newfound confidence.

And then fear sets it, that at any moments time, it can all go away and you will be back to being miserable and being controlled by your own demons.

Scary shit, right?

Regardless of such, I know one thing is a constant…

No matter what I’m dealing with, no matter how good it gets or bad it turns out…

Writing will always be my go to weapon of choice. Whether I need to cry, vent or kill someone (er…just joking), I know that I can fully express myself here. My silent but deadly voice.

Well Until Next Time Kiddies

shalom

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Today’s Anniversary

So hey guys…it’s been a while since I got to typing and putting my feelings onto the page.  But I have been trying the video blog and YouTube shit and it’s not so bad.  But today’s blog was brought to you by the letter A.

Just kidding… But the topic starts with an A as in anniversary!

I woke up realizing…well… knowing that today, 11/9 was my own D-Day.  It was the anniversary of the ex, I recently came to leave. But I didn’t wake up with sadness, which I feared.  I wasn’t even angry anymore.  I was happy…shit maybe I am going through some manic shit as a result of being bi-polar.  (OK I have not been diagnosed with that shit but I could be…idk). 

Maybe it was all the frustrations I took out on the zombies in Call of Duty. Oh yeah…I think it was the thought of giving headshots to the Nazi zombies that I confronted, level after level!

Anywho, I woke up happy today because I think that I am starting to find inner peace because as soon as I went onto Facebook, they were showing some happy memories of my ex and I.  I knew it was coming the whole “On This Day” shit and I was wondering what kind of day it would be. 

Oh and yes I cropped out our faces….no need to continue being petty.

I got to thinking about how toxic it was for me the last four years.  I pretty much was in a relationship with a black hole (where you give and give and the other half absorbs and absorbs).  If I wanted to go out, have fun, engage in anything. I had to be the one to initiate it. I paid for nearly everything.  And when I looked back at how much I did, I wondered how delusional or insecure I was.  Now before you go judging me as to why I stayed and blah blah blah, there was the whole trying to be this supportive-watch-your-man-grow thing, but that wasn’t the case. I was being sucked dry and instead of running away, I ran towards it.

Now I won’t get into details of how bad or good things were because I am happy to have helped someone get on their feet and become better…even if it meant for someone else. I no longer harbor grudges or resentment or anything that would cause me pain. Because that shit is so unhealthy and at the end of the day, like I said, I chose to stay.  But it didn’t mean it wasn’t without pain…I let it consume me to the point of wanting to exact revenge.

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I was so torn but I had to realized that I was expecting love from someone who could not give it (or would not). Now this epiphany did not come easily.  I had to go through a lot (I mean it was beyond your typical unfaithful guy…this shit was damn near deadly).  Nevertheless I got through it. Sitting here to day, happy. Why? Because I refused to let anything or anyone control my emotions like that ever again.  I needed to accept the fact that I gave permission to be treated as such in addition to the fact I didn’t accept long ago who I was choosing to be with.

And that’s what today’s blog was about: Accepting and Expecting!!!

I could be a Dumbass & stay stuck on foolery, but why?

Accept who the people are in your life but do not expect them to be someone they’re not or do something they can’t.  Remember, just because you cuddle with a snake and dress it like a puppy, doesn’t mean it won’t turn and bite you or squeeze the life outta you.  With that said you can either accept how they will treat you (good or bad), & leave or stay.  Some people are only in your lives for a brief time to teach you a lesson or to get to their intended destination.  You can’t always view it with disdain that they want to hurt you but often times they just end up doing it.

But how you live with that is up to you. You must live, learn and move on!

So today I focused more on another anniversary, It was the same day I went public with my small start up business, Philly Designated Drivers. Sometine when I met my ex…had I not met, my driving gigs probably wouldn’t have grown at that time.

So I focused on that a little… but as I look ahead, I realize that too must be concluded. (for now).  I woke up remembering that when you do the things that you love and focus more on that as a career, it feels less like a job.  So it is now that I embark on my writing career and such…blogs and all! I’m all media again baby!!!

Now I know I’ve said it before but what makes today pretty awesome, was that I look around me and see so much to be happy for, instead of being crappy about it.  Yeah I could be sad about being single but here I am no longer killing myself chasing someone who’s toxic (and he gets to be someone else’s problem). In addition to that, I realized that I had so many new and amazing people who care & loved me that, why the fuck was I pressed over anyone who wasn’t?

I’m done with the shit that made me a lesser person.  I mean it’s dumb of me to sit there and stay pressed over it.  I won’t give it power over me, shit I don’t even need to or will continue to talk about it

I have a new and awesome job at an awesome place with awesome people and oh I upgraded my old Chevy Impala to a new one!!

 So you see, each day in life is about new beginnings and starting over…or even going back to a happy point in life and reclaiming it.  My happiest day aside from bringing my child into the world was getting my book published. I missed that feeling and as I sit and write one story and edit my old manuscript…I am ready to fly!!!!

Actually…I’m not mad…odd!

Well til next time kiddies…

Shalom

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Review: Netflix’s Marvel Defenders

Hey gang it’s your favorite Insomniac here to talk about the new comic-book mashup: Marvel’s Defenders, which premiered today on Netflix!  I mean I literally have been waiting all summer… and it’s finally here!!  As if the hype wasn’t enough, everyone including yours truly has been posting on social media or otherwise talking about it since it’s inception with the debut Daredevil & Jessica Jones.

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Netflix and Marvel later added Luke Cage and Iron Fist to the mix, with the latter receiving mixed reviews from critics and fans.  But still to me worth checking out.

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All in all Netflix comic shows are more grittier and down to earth than it’s MCU’s Avengers superhero counterparts on the silver screen and Agents of SHIELD on TV… giving us some noteworthy TV goodies! I’m about halfway through the series and I must admit I am loving every moment of it. The show does get off to a slow start building up the plot but once our action heroes get together it’s EPIC! Even for you guys who really didn’t like Iron Fist and gave it a hard way to go you will be pleasantly surprised by Finn Jones’ performance. I mean on paper I was never really a big Iron Fist fan (I guess I just never gave it a chance prematurely) so when I saw the show I wasn’t expecting a whole lot but this show will be the Pinnacle of making Iron Fist a much better character as we see his character develop. Especially since he’s pinned with more “Adult-like” characters who check him instead of letting him run around like a child needing a reality check, especially Luke Cage. In his own right he is so focused on his own vendetta, that he doesn’t see the bigger picture…but to play devil’s advocate…so are the rest of them.  Once they meet and their stories collide, they see that they are only small parts to a bigger “whole”!

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With Defenders, you get exactly what you expect from a collaboration of superheroes teaming up to fight some Big baddies.  But what I like most about it is that it starts exactly where each individual show series left off and for those of you who haven’t tuned in to watch any of them apart from one another, you won’t be too lost with what’s going on. Trust me you will be pleasantly entertained! That being said I still recommend you watching them just stream it and just let your whole weekend go. Get comfy and get into Marvel/Netflix superhero fanfest…then tune into this amazing mashup, collabo or whatever you want to call it.

I mean honestly what I like about this compared to the Avengers, Thor, Iron Man and all that is that the characters feel more human. Pretty much everyone is your everyday guy or girl trying to do the right thing trying to help out. I mean sure they have some spectacular abilities but with the exception of Iron Fist aka Danny Rand (who doesn’t throw his money in your face like ahem Tony Stark, they’re not super rich or super high-powered characters making you feel like you’re in Fantasyland… well Luke Cage & Jessica Jones have some super-strength and Daredevil is a blind, super karate ninja guy but you know what I mean. This although a big change from the traditional Defenders comic and is more from the pages of Heroes for Hire, it’s still a good show to check out. Heck they even wear street clothes & get into street fights… against bad people, not aliens, inhumans or mutants… not in some other dimension, space or what have you but right in NY…well nevermind, all things that can turn to shit apparently seem to start in the Big Apple! Nonetheless they’ll finally have had their own show to tune into and now they’ll have to band forces to FIGHT! We’ll even get some fourplay for us Punisher/Jon Bernthal fans…wink wink. (Um Marvel/Mr. Stan Lee, I’ll need a check for that free plug) That being said let me know what you think. Do you like The Defenders like the Marvel Netflix?

I think it was worth the wait and I’m going to give it an awesome thumbs up!

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Well until next time Kiddies,

Shalom… 😉

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When it’s gone…it’s…gone

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I should’ve cried my heart out now that you’re gone.
But I am a dry wasteland inside after so much you’ve done

I’ve been here before so many times for the same crime
Of loving fully someone not worth my space & time

Am I full of regrets? Perhaps, maybe But I am equally tired of pain
I’m fucking done of feeling stressed… too heavy on my brain

I thought I was your rib, I thought you were my air
A mistake I’ve made so much you’d think I was the one who didn’t care

I sit here facing my words and the very judgement I lapsed
But it’s the future I only see, no time to dwell on your or my pasts

I won’t gossip your fuck ups nor will I air our dirty laundry out to other ears and eyes
Because it was ours both to make and I chose to stick by your side

It’s not me being considerate of you or accountability that I lack
I’m just finally over your ways in the way and holding me back

I guess a part of me has already moved on
I guess I was pretty much done and ready to be gone

We were going to conquer the world together and prove them wrong
We were going to make the most epic story to tell along

And before you go so far as to think I’m an angry female, I’m not
I still care about you but I can’t do anymore…I gave all I got

But I guess I wasn’t good enough or hood enough for you to consider
A reality-show-type-stripper-hooker is more fun than a first-lady-type-Michelle-Obama

You could’ve had it all and now you’ll see what you had now that it’s gone
Serves your ass right for fucking over a queen for ratchet ass pawns

Drunken Insomniac Writer

poem of thought, 101

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Departing the house of pain and lies filled with rooms of doubt and despair.
I stepped away and looked down at my ashes in my hands, the smoke in my hair.
I kept walking away never stopping to look back, not contemplating one turn
Because I had poured the gasoline, struck the match and watched it all burn.
Was I finally free? I was let go of all your disappointments that led to my stress
All I could look forward now to was my surrender to my own happiness.
No longer would you pollute my sight.  No longer would you cause my tears.
Because I finally found a way to let go of what kept me insane these past years.
I won’t allow you and all that follow you make me prematurely grow old
It’s time I begin the fight to repair my soul.
No longer would I tear pieces of myself away to build you up
No longer would I belittle myself to nothing more than a convenient fuck.
You see I am done with you about as much as I am done with what ruined my past
It’s time for me to take the present and look toward building my better future at last.
I’ve been here before staring at the horizon of bliss
To keep from going back I won’t think of the good I might miss.
Because once I finally let go and found the courage to stand tall through the disdain
I realize that the only good in you was shrouded in selfish means you sought to gain.
I see now that it was a mirage and that the love was all a fraud, a fake
From that overwhelming nightmare, I am now finally awake.
Good bye, I’m gone from here. I see now the lesson I never truly learned
Until  I had poured the gasoline, struck the match and watched it all burn.

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